Look I’m sorry for being so honest,
I’m sorry, but the blunt truth,
is that I can’t go on being your friend,
because I think I”m in love with you…
I still haven’t responded
to what your text or email said
& I can’t call you back
for fear of my heart trumping my head.
I miss your laugh & the catch in your voice…
I miss you forcing me to tell the truth.
I miss your stupid jokes, & teasing,
But most of all, i just really miss you…
the craving, yearning, is just weird
& i’m way too embarrassed to admit
how often I think of you and wonder
how you did this to me, darn-it!
It’s torture, because I’m leaving.
& I want you here, right now!
And this song better stay secret
cuz my heart is on a time-out!
It’s not allowed to love you,
It’s the wrong time & place.
but, it’s not not listening to my head,
or what my better sense may say!
“Don’t you dare love him!!!
Don’t you dare fall!”
what a fool I am again!
but i wish i could give him it all.
I’m sure he’s moved on..
& so should I!
but, to be honest with me,
I also know that’s a lie…
It scares me to death,
he can see right through…
get me to tell everything,
think of the damage he could do!
Besides, I’m moving.
so it’s irrelevant anyhow!
I really should get better
at keeping my heart on it’s time-out…