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that’s my life right now… try again


Mix a little bit of Heaven
with a lot a bit of Hell
the intermingling of God’s love
with the reality to which we fell,

and you shall have my life
with chunks of truths inside
watered down with lies
held together with hopeful tries

You know, I’m not bitter inside,
just haven’t figured out how to win….
it’s nobody’s fault, not even mine
So, I shall try, & try, & try again…

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Handprint in the haze


I press my hand onto the cold window
watch the fog web in between my fingers
Then I lift my hand away with care
& watch the humid outline that lingers

Through the hand shaped fog I look out
I see shops, people, & mountains rush by
I feel so caged in our orange Subaru,
Not sure exactly what the reason is why….

Here, out in the open expanses…
You would think I feel free at last…
but all I see whipping through my hand lens…
are scattered longings for the past…

Oh if ever I should learn my lesson,
well, now would be the perfect time.
Just be happy with where I am at,
& stop envying all I’ve left behind…

I lean my forehead on the window,
Close my eyes & imagine I’m far away…
Last time I did this I was on a plane,
Flying away from all I now miss of yesterday…

 

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Right now written 11/27/2011


Right now, I want nothing more
than not to be in love with you
right now, i want nothing more
than for you to be in love with me too

Right now, i want you
to break all my rules,
right now, i want to
be sure I won’t be made the fool

but right now,
all I can do
is close my journal
& dream about you.

 

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the smart child sleeps


When a child is most in terror
they turn to their dreams…
Some think that they are lazy,
because, that is how it seems…

but unlike us adults,
there’s a sort of wisdom, unsaid…
While adults worry fruitless nights away,
kids cry themselves to sleep, instead

I forget sometimes what it is,
or what it was to be a child…
the constraints of parents & rules,
yet the past-less freedom to be wild…

I remember the frustration,
of being thought too young to know…
and I couldn’t wait to grow up,
& show them an intelligent show…

Oh boy, did I ever show them…
oh yeah, look how far I’ve gone…
maybe they really did know better…
maybe all that time, i was wrong..?

 

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could have


i’m supposed to be packing
or going to sleep by this time…
but i don’t really want to go anymore…
I’m dreading this long drive…

Do you ever feel like you’re just
living your life to please everyone?
I wonder if in the end I will have anything
to show for all I could have done?

 

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“Queen me…” she whispered


I walked into what could have been heaven
restored paintings from Venice & Greece
& then I saw her eyes looking into my soul…
Within I heard her whisper, “Queen me…”

She was the face of a woman in a painting
with Lilies behind, and sunbeams cut in…
I saw two hands bestowing a crown to her…
from heaven they seemed to descend…

She was surrounded with the scent of flowers,
being crowned queen of Heaven & Earth…
& yet her eyes cried out to me in longing…
the crown of thorns on her heart from birth…

“Queen me” she whispered with her eyes…
“But, who am I? how can I queen anyone?”
She said nothing more to me in response…
“Queen me…” I shall. i shall for the sake of her son….

 

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when you get out there


Now, don’t go off n’ ruin perfect…
now, don’t be changin’ too much…
the world is such a crazy place to live in…
but you’ll be fine, i got a hunch…

And you’re beautiful,
and your’e smart & sweet,
oh you think you know so much,
you think you know everything…

but just wait a year or two
come back & tell me how you’ve been…
Don’t forget about me here…
after you get to where you’re goin’…

i miss you already,
say goodbye with tears of joy…
oh little sweet heart,
just don’t fall for any ole boy…

you’ll be just fine.
i believe in where you’ll go
don’t be discouraged, if it takes
some time for you to get there, though…

 
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