Sometimes I wish i just didn’t care.
because I’m dying inside
and your not even here
to unveil the truth that I try to hide
My stomach is tied in knots
I get nauseous just thinking within…
and the only way to untie the hurt
is to release the pain in tearful spasms
I should never have allowed myself
to love you so much
I hate how I’m addicted to you,
how much i miss ur presence & touch…
I hate the longing I can’t fight,
and i hate the distraction unending,
i would just break up with you now,
but i’m too in love to start pretending
that i could ever end it with you first.
because in all honesty im far too head over heels
i just want you here now, with me…
i had no idea how loving would feel…
it feels like a burning.
like a scorching, hurting,
craving hungry fire within
wanting you, just yearning….
to have you with me again.
long distance just sucks.