she stood there in the shower
watching the steam rise from the floor
and at that moment it hit her from within…
“i just can’t keep doing this anymore…”
I have all these different guys
who i want around to give me attention
when in my heart i know that i truly don’t
wish to be with any one of them…
How did i get to where i justify
myself playing them like puppets on string?
since when have i been so desperate?
and since when was i that full of apathy?
…that i can’t just be happy
without always being the one adored?!
what a bitch i am becoming!…
using supposed insecurity as a hook & sword!
sigh, i need to let them go; i’m living this lie
she sat down there in the steam- broke down & cried…
what kind of fake triple sided person have i become?
i can’t keep being this evil temptress… what has my foolish pride done?