chains & storms

06 Jun

Some nights i miss you so much
i break my heart within tearful chains
but the memories won’t let me loose…
i hide from friends with ‘i’m too tired’ claims…

with led balls of guilt, i won’t go out, i find
sometimes you just need a long hard cry…
& like the rumbling Texas lightning strikes…
the flashing memories can’t be contained tonight…

so tonight i lay broken in two
i would do anything to take back time
i didn’t know you were more divided than I am…
i didn’t know your chains were too heavy to fight…

and definitely didn’t know you would take your own life…


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5 responses to “chains & storms

  1. Da Absentee

    June 7, 2013 at 5:20 pm

    Can feel the emotion in this one. I dont know if you like going to the place you went here but you sound comfortable there

    • unwrittentruth

      June 8, 2013 at 7:35 pm

      i scare myself, by how well i’m able to thrive poetically in the darker poetry. My dad always told me growing up to be careful who i trust, because not everyone is good hearted. he said some people are just evil at their core. and to be wary. But i always wondered growing up which one i was… i used to write a lot more of the dark stuff. and i always felt like maybe i was evil & just hiding it from the world. it’s definitely a slippery slope, & i probably shouldn’t ride it so often. but it is so much easier for me to tap into passion & conviction this way than almost any other. but no, i wish i were more comfortable in the lighter, uplifting stuff

  2. Bluesander

    June 8, 2013 at 3:39 pm

    Suicide is always a heavy subject…You are strong for confronting it, for reflecting on it…and I know writing this is already healing you.

    • unwrittentruth

      June 8, 2013 at 7:36 pm

      thank you… maybe it is healing. i somewhat see it as a wall i will have to tear down & get through to move on eventually. At some point i have to make sense of this before i can have legitimate relationships again. and on here, is where i do that introspection. thank you

      • Bluesander

        June 8, 2013 at 8:42 pm

        I feel the same way regarding many of my own dark thoughts. Writing does the soul good. I should be the one thanking you – sharing thoughts like this makes it easier to see that you’re not alone in your pain and thoughts.


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