someday, it will be okay to just sit on my couch all saturday afternoon & watch a movie marathon, drinking tea & eating ice cream & fudge… But today, i have far too much to do. I am moving to another country in 3 weeks, and all i want to do is sleep, rest, & just procastinate in general. Why do we aspire to go so far far away, just to acquire the peaceful lifestyle i could easily achieve now if i were to just stop moving? to stop exploring?
and yet, i can faintly hear the exotic bustling city sounds in the wind. i can feel the crashing of distant waves, i can see the far off sunset and smell the strange night air, i can even taste sweet juicy fruits that only grow there…. I’ve saved up for months, budgeting carefully, turning down nights out with friends, and concerts, and shows… i suppose i figure these far off friends, shows, and concerts will be worth that wait? we shall see… tonight, i wish i could just relax.