Lines and kinks

Don’t iron out all my kinks,

they’re part of who I want to be…

It’s exhausting to be constantly compared

to photo-shopped magazines…

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Ask any girl, it’s a tougher world

than people give us credit for daily facing…

in the middle of the night, I find my mother

in the living room, just pacing….

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don’t hi-light every hair,

so that the depths sink into the past…

don’t build my sister’s confidence on her

pretty lined lips, that won’t last…

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Ask any woman trying to make it alone,

 

the hardest thing to face is the mirror at night.

with my eyes sunken in, and slowly fading skin.

it’s a battle to love every finely etched line…

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I want to go deeper than you’re sight.

i want to reach farther than that show on tv,

i want to harness what the world has to offer,

and ride it into a confident peace.

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I want to bring laughter and knowledge

I want inspire creativity and fearless dreams,

I want to be the shoulder to cry and place to lean,

but more than anything else, I want to love me.

 

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Sanctuary

Go ahead, quiet soul… whisper your secret
I shall cross my heart & promise to keep it
All I ask is that you stay honest & stay true…
and in return, i shall keep & protect you…

For in this world, it’s such a stormy place
so many winds blowing so many different ways,
but i have quieted a place for you & you alone…
in my heart’s chambers I shall build for you a throne…

And you may rule my thoughts during the day
and build my dreams as I sleep the night away,
oh hope, oh desires, oh secret plan I hold within
For some it’s just a fantasy, but for me, it’s genuine…

 

 

 

sorting it out

Over saturated feelings

after a drought of years on end

I don’t know how to sort out

whether I love or I hate this…

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At least I felt something again,

at least I know the fire exists,

at least I got to have a taste,

at least I know I can experience this…

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But I know I’m already loving you too much

I know it’s too soon for me to shoot the gun,

and I don’t want to see everything come undone…

all the feelings just hit me like a hit and run

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you  made a fool out of me

 

 

hang the memories on a noose

the thing is that, I know

what I need to do

is just forget you,

hang the memories on a noose.

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I know that it’s

border-line wrong

for me to keep holding on

to stars in the dawn…

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you can’t fight gravity

you can’t fight the moon

you can’t distort time,

and I can’t be with you…

 

Oh border lines,

seas and politics,

love and war,

why did I ever get in?

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It’s too powerful

it knocked me into the wall

it made a fool of my mind

and it burns to recall,

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I hate to remember how

perfect it fell into fate

because you can’t recreate

that kind of chemical flame

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never again, will I

feel the energy off your skin.

and as long as I live,

i’ll be fighting it…

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because I know

exactly what I need to do

is forget you,

hang the memories on a noose.

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because as long as I remember it,

I won’t be able to deny or fight,

I won’t be able to pretend or compromise,

I won’t be able to love a mediocre life…

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What I wouldn’t give

to have amnesia of this,

what I wouldn’t do

just to forget you

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And what I wouldn’t trade

fates with the milky way,

to redistribute the earth

to be held by you forever more…