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as close as i can let you come

i just want to scratch these scales off my back…
feel the burn as these cold hours pass….
i just want to dig the dark hole out of my gut…
throw it into the light and know what’s what…

I feel the laser beams sizzling by my ears,
as my body is suspended in mid air…
franticly trying to escape this foggy maze,
and all i know and all i have is your gaze…

i just want to lie to you, to find the truth,
i just want to run away, to see if you will too…
i just want to lock you out of my heart and cry
because it’s so very very lonely inside.

but i have a heart that cannot be loved
it’s too cold, it will shatter at your touch
i’m afraid, this is as far as i can let you come…
because i just really can’t do it, i just can’t really love.


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i flew too far, you flew too fast…

I flew too far, you flew too fast,
we both agreed, we’d never last,
only took a moment to turn us into the past,
costing us both a lifetime of looking back…

you chose the East, I chose the West,
seemed no point to consider a nest,
but since that day when we both left,
every view since then has been second best…

because after having such a perfect friend,
switching places, breaking each other’s winds,
can you ever fly with another again?
without all the excitement becoming pretend?

and could I have known how hard the channel’s winds would rush?…
could you have realized how deeply your heart would be crushed?
oh if we had known, even across the globe, that there was no escape…
and that hardly any one else is bold enough to fly these days..?.

well if i’m honest, i’d rather fly with you…
but you flew to the sun, and I, i flew to the moon,
it was like that dream, when you wake up too soon,
never got to resolve, never found my way back to you…


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want you to feel like me

I used to write songs for you and I
I used to dream in vivid colors of our future life
And as it fades away, into an inky tearful night,
I want nothing more, than to look at you & lie…

I wanna say I never thought we’d work anyway
I wanna lie & say I am so over all those yesterdays
I wanna say that I was just waiting for you to break…
I wanna lie, save my pride, and save my face…

But this time, you should really hear
All the anger, hurt, and wasted tears,
Want to make you feel as insecure as I do here,
And strip you of all I gave you these years….

Want to make your pride sting and your ego bend,
I hope you feel ugly and totally unwanted,
I hope you feel used and abused and then…
I hope you never get over it in the end…

But more than anything,
I want you to really see,
Just what a cold hearted bitch
That you have made of me.

for a friend who is going through a divorce


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heart pick-pocket

berry juicy kind of sweet
i let you get the best of me…
and i gave you just enough
but then you grabbed my trust…

and i’m still running,
trying to feel something…
give it back, give it back, it’s mine
somebody get him! tonight….

ain’t nothing but a love pick-pocket
stealing goodies like the love in a locket…
i don’t need your words another time,
i needed you to rise up & really be mine…

but you can’t be caught for this,
think you’re Leonardo Dicaprio’s twin,,
all you are is mean, & stolen part of me..
why won’t you set me free? & let me be…


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the first break up’s end…

i convulsed & shriveled into my bed
punching feathers in vain
the whole street knew who was to blame
from the piercing cries of your name…

then i scooped through 2 Walmarts of ice cream
and bent 20 ears with how i still loved you
and it was after the 23rd load of tearful laundry
that i realized you really just weren’t worth this ado

i swore i’d never love again until
i knew that he could never break my heart
and i’ve been pretty keen on that promise
but i’ve also been good on extinguishing sparks…


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sometimes lightening brings no rain

sometimes the heart does lie
sometimes lightning brings no rain
sometimes a spark won’t start the fire
and sometimes true love is in vain…

some words may stay unspoken
and some dreams never pursued
some stars may never be wished on
and I’m pretty sure, i’ll never have you


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i wanted that tornado… but fire doesn’t mix with ice

I wanted to love you until the end, I really did…
But then I felt the emptiness of the cold night wind…
A text [message] saying we should really talk in person about this…
I should really have known better than to trust the weather men…

They said it would be warm & sunny days
They said the forecast was a lovely & nice relationship…
But you had fooled me like the eerie silence before a storm,
And oh, baby, I will never be caught in this cold tornado again!

Running for the cellar, just hoping for refuge from the chaos,
reaching out to grab what I hold most dear only for you to rip it away,
At this point I’m trying to lock my heart into the ground…
Before I’ll ever let you take my heart’s breathe away into the grey…

Oh storm clouds whip snow into my eyes…
But with eyes squinted in fear, I can finally see the truth around me
& That the cellar to which I’ve been running all this time,
Has been the eye of the storm just waiting to embrace me….

Haha, I wanted to love you until the end, what a fool!
You deceived me into believing you felt the same for me,
Oh some day I hope you know, sweet demon of lies,
You may bring the cold, but I shall bring the fire to this meeting…


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