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Man, to get here…


Man, I just don’t give a care,
the longer i live the less it means, i swear…
all the status and accolades i used to need
now appear such shallow and empty dreams…

I’ve grown past needing to get even or be right,
it was a fruitless and exhausting fight.
i’m tired of spending nights counting wrongs,
they’re forgiven and set free like a voice in a song…

I’m sure I’m still ignorant and plenty naive
enough for yall to point fingers and make jokes at me,
so go ahead, i’ll just laugh and let it go,
get an extra smile, and be fine, because you know…

man, these days, i just don’t give a care,
it comes in on one side, then out the other ear,
i’m a good person, not perfect, but i’m okay.
and i know inside out, that won’t change with what you say.

the out-smarting, the bragging, and extra glamourous things,
are worthless and useless if you don’t care for high society,
I have realized how fleeting and hot burns their fire,
while, hardly worth holding, and self harming to aquire…

so nowadays, i don’t give a care
you can love me or hate me, or in my apathy share,
I’m genuinely happy forgiving, and with it all gone,
For the first time, I have really and finally moved on…

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it’s like we’re already in tomorrow…


I don’t want to be your would have been perfect,
i don’t want to be that sweet goodbye, maybe someday,
because i don’t want to be your fire of an adventure
and then become your ‘one who got away”

i don’t want to admit the truth to anyone living,
and i wouldn’t even tell you if you strait up asked.
but if you grabbed me, the way you look at me,
and just kissed me like we both know you want to…
well then maybe, this wouldn’t just float into the past…

you know, i live on this world, not much more specific-
have a few countries, and dozens of cities under my belt.
i’d have been fine following a whim, if you’d just gotten up the guts
to have come and honestly told me how you’ve felt…

but tomorrow you’ll fly away… like we both knew you would.
and all they all foretold, all we both expected, will just disappear
into a story that neither of us will ever tell…
so we’ll just hold it in our hearts; and act like we never even cared.

like we never even cared at all.
guess you’ll be my one who got away, after all…

 

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drizzly rain outside the subway doesn’t care


you know the light rain outside the subway doesn’t give a care…
and the autumn wind, is getting cold again, just as I feared…

it’s the wild beast that i try to feed, just a little now and then…
but it refuses to change or find some other prey, it still lives within..

oh indecisiveness rules my heart and mind, my words and time,
oh deceptive pangs of longing spike, and strike my judgement blind..

I just want it to be for real, to seal the deal, have it last for good,
he’s jumping in the deep end, while im looking at every other ‘i could’

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truths mean more than dares


i didn’t see the point in tying you down
i couldn’t bring myself to throw my heart out,
and when you asked if i agreed and i was sure,
i wasn’t going to argue you into loving me more…

and i may never have told you i loved you or cared,
but i sat there every night and was always there…
some people speak with words that never end,
some people can kiss you into loving them,

and some people write letters, others poems,
and some people like me will never say so…
only want to live in your presence all the time,
laugh at your jokes, and finish words to your lines,

just want to climb mountains and sail seas with you
with unceasing teasing and games of taboo…
some people will never open up the lid
and let all the steam be visible again…

to be honest, i’m still figuring out exactly what love is.
trying so hard to be honest, in every way with this.
I don’t know the future, but I do know my dreams,
i don’t know the right words, and i can’t name feelings.

but i do know that every day we’ve spent as two
i’ve laughed twice as much, and started telling more truths,
closer to the person i want to be, when you’re there,
i guess sometimes a truth means more than a dare.

so all the words i hold unspoken within,
you can read them in how much time i’ve spent,
as someone so set on living all of my dreams,
how could you not know, how much i cared for thee?

 

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missed a little bit


you think you’re so smooth with your walk
you got those cowboy eyes that gaze into souls
and with deceptive genuinity you caught me off guard
you made me think you could fill all my holes…

but heart breakers like you don’t really care…
you think I’m being dramatic, or clingy, or a prude…
you’ve already made me into this cookie cutter girl in your mind,
i know how it works, because i’ve done it all too…

but this time, i was going to step out
and explore regions of vulnerability i’v yet to explore…
but i should have been a little more careful
not to be overly eager to give everything more

so you won it, i guess
i kind of fell for you just a little bit
not as much as i thought at first…
but enough, that you’ll be missed…

 

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ex-innoncents


a kiss don’t mean nothing to some…
but for me it used to mean ‘i like only you’
i guess it’s not a lie for one of the first kind…
but to my little soul, it stung like salt on a wound…

i will never again believe a kiss is more than i know,
i guess i turned the tables on the world…
the innocent preying on the guilty players…
now i’m just a cold hearted cynical girl….

but i guess that’s how all the guilty players are…
ex-innocents getting their revenge on the system…
a vicious cycle supposedly centered on finding love,
maybe apathy is its own kind of wisdom…

 

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but i didn’t love you


I loved how much you loved me…
but someone else can too…
I loved all the attention…
but someday, someone else will listen too…

I loved that you were so loyal
committed & true…
only problem was…
that i was not actually in love with you…

I couldn’t stand how you
could cook better than me,
and that you couldn’t even name
all the NFL teams….

it drove me insane,
how your life plans always changed
and that you cared as much about fashion
as I did about climbing the range…

you were an amazing best friend…
and you truly were always there for me…
but at least for right now baby,
you & I were not made to be…

 

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