found my heart as i got over you

Sound my music to the shadow of a tale
almost grande almost more than the legends do
We had an epic unfurling of hopeful dreams
but our story ended with no goodbye from you…

most would count that as “the end”
but here, we can count that as the start
because since the moment I finally moved on
that’s when I found the best of my heart

I am the one looking for an adventure
I am the pirate of seashell treasures at the beach
I am the swing dancer in a swirly skirt
who won’t let anything keep me from dancing…

i love lemon ice cream on hot summer days
go ahead let myself indulge in some chocolate cake
Get a manicure, pedicure, spoil myself through & through
i learned to love my life, when, i was just trying to get over you

watch that ship disappear into the sea of past blues…
sing that country song, even if i can’t keep the tune
starting a new adventure after climbing a mountain or two
Cuz you moved on, and finally, I’m free to love someone new…

 

may be crazy, but it’s okay…

Maybe crazy…
but I’m realizing more & more…
that it’s okay baby…
for us not to be totally sure…

as long as we keep loving each other
day by day, we’ll get through…
So now i’m gunna stop anticipating…
and just let myself fall hard for you…

Now, I’m rather anti-romantic…
roll my eyes at candles & a rose…
but if you wanna go for a walk in starlight,
I’d be game for holding hands, I suppose…

And while I don’t use pet names…
you’re still the only mister in my life…
I just hope you know that i miss you…
if we can last past the distance, we’ll get by….

So for now, i’ll just sing in my car,
and send a paper letter with a heart…
you can concentrate on school & family,
and looking at me like no one else even starts…

may be crazy,
but i’m okay
with just waiting
until we have more to say….

 

Fresh Breath of Autumn

And the leaves begin to fade

Into brighter colors

And as the seasons change

I experience brand new wonders

–

There’s a secret power

Hidden in the tranquil leaves

Falling from that tower

That only silence can release

–

Watch the magic fall

With the Autumn breeze

Watch the beauty unfold

From the magestic trees

–

It all comes from the dryness

It all comes from death

And yet there is a likeness

To a life’s first breath

–

A fresh breath of fall

A fresh breath of new

A fresh breath of it all

And I’ll share my first breath of Autumn ….with you

—

written September 2009. It was my first autumn, as I grew up in the south where leaves don’t change colors really, & we didn’t get snow for winter… so, this song was my wonder at the changing of seasons…

 

begin living my dream!

I’ve spent four years

trying to figure out who i want to be

& now that I know,

There’s no stopping me.

–

No boy or man with blue eyes,

no alluring short cut to fame,

no town-full of friends,

will keep me from my way!

–

I can do grey skies for a few years

i can do Ramon noodles & old shoes

They just don’t seem so bad,

when you got a dream waiting for you.

–

Don’t need no boy right now,

enough of waiting for mr. right…

I’m shining & alive, so excited

to finally have decided to begin my own life.

–

Here’s my life for me

world, watch me struggle then soar!

Finally, I’m ready to begin,

this time it’s my dream i’m striving for!