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Man, to get here…


Man, I just don’t give a care,
the longer i live the less it means, i swear…
all the status and accolades i used to need
now appear such shallow and empty dreams…

I’ve grown past needing to get even or be right,
it was a fruitless and exhausting fight.
i’m tired of spending nights counting wrongs,
they’re forgiven and set free like a voice in a song…

I’m sure I’m still ignorant and plenty naive
enough for yall to point fingers and make jokes at me,
so go ahead, i’ll just laugh and let it go,
get an extra smile, and be fine, because you know…

man, these days, i just don’t give a care,
it comes in on one side, then out the other ear,
i’m a good person, not perfect, but i’m okay.
and i know inside out, that won’t change with what you say.

the out-smarting, the bragging, and extra glamourous things,
are worthless and useless if you don’t care for high society,
I have realized how fleeting and hot burns their fire,
while, hardly worth holding, and self harming to aquire…

so nowadays, i don’t give a care
you can love me or hate me, or in my apathy share,
I’m genuinely happy forgiving, and with it all gone,
For the first time, I have really and finally moved on…

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don’t let yourself go


Could it be that ‘the one’ is just a joke
pick some one and love them, never let them go…?
find someone and find a way to make them laugh,
why must we complicate it so much more than that?

oh i was such an angry girl,
i just wanted to fire back at the world,
such a lost dream, such a hurt hope,
such a beautiful story that nobody ever wrote…

gotta tell myself, i’m fine now, im really fine.
just the way i am, even if i know it’s a lie.
look in the mirror, learn to love the face i see,
learn to love all the hurt, the eyes are hiding…

learn to love and forgive all the sins i tried…
learn to cry and trust someone again sometime,
maybe stop building walls up so very high?
worst case- they break me, but what’s another time?

stand up strait, it’s gonna be alright
i’m just fine, every wrinkle is where it goes.
i’m beautiful and i’m a good person at the core,
pick myself and love me, never let me go…

don’t let yourself go.

 

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let the stupid honesty begin…


And let the honesty begin
because i suck at pretending we’re just friends.
I tried to act like i didn’t care
but it was all i could do not pull out that girl’s hair…

Who says we can’t work out?
i mean 3 years is kind of awkward, it’s true,
but I’m tired of acting like a brat,
because I’m so jealous over you….

So much for dark curly brown hair…
and so much for dating a guy in the NFL,
so much for staying single for a few years…
my stupid heart rolled it’s eyes at me & fell…

fell for your ridiculously big blue eyes
and when i get all angry & fiesty,
how you hold my arms down and close…
i fell for your reliability to always be timely…

i fell for your convictions set in stone,
and how you always think for yourself,
i fell for how you get me to climb mountains,
and how you have a great perspective on wealth…

honestly i love your huge family,
and as much as i enjoy playing around,
darn it, i can’t really play with you because,
you are the best match i’ve ever found….

Do i hate that this is you? you from back in highschool?
yes, i hated you & ur whole group’s guts back then…
but evidently that really doesn’t matter for much anymore…
because between the two cons & a million pros, you win…

 

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new years… never really works out for me


New years scare me.
My calendar looms before me so unloved…
it seems so big! like so much can change!
but then at the end, not much really ever does…

It seems every year i ‘fall in love’
and then we break up & i move on.
how many years can i relive this story?
it’s getting so exhausting & so long…

So hear is my 2013 resolution…
may this year be different & may i grow.
may i end this year a better person,
and not waste time on.. well you know…

I hope when i look back on this year,
it will be the year that everything changed!!!
so I’m going to begin this new trend,
by not planning anything… my future a blank page!

 

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I’ll be honest… and that’s okay


I’ll be honest, i’m not that happy…
But you know what, sometimes that’s okay…
Because I know it’s a cold dark winter,
And i’ll have more laughs on some summer day…

I’ll be honest, i’m really scared nobody will love me
Nobody will love me for who i really am…
but even more scary is that I wonder if i can love him
but you know what, time will tell me if anyone can…

And you know, to be honest right now…
i feel so alone, useless, & just really ugly inside out…
But my plan is just to say my prayers, & wish on stars,
until time & sunshine eventually will end my doubt…

and i’ll be honest, i’m not okay….
but there’s a beauty to accepting this sorrow,
and i have faith that there will be more smiles,
if i can just wait it out, until tomorrow’s tomorrow…

 

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Cry, little angel, cry….


Cry, little angel, cry….
you don’t have to bottle it inside
you don’t always have to be
the strong one, you’ll find…

It’s okay to lean on a shoulder…
it’s okay to need help now & then..
it’s okay to have fears & soft-spots
it’s okay to be just a human…

Oh, child, sorrow is part of life
So cry, little angel, cry…
Just know that it will end someday,
and visit at certain times….

But, most days are lovely
most days have sunshine…
but if you need to cry some tears…
oh child, that’s just fine..

 
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Posted by on December 14, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

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Dear Friend, i’m here for you…


Dear friend, you called me up to say
the other night, you made a grave mistake,
you shrug in shame, when i asked if you’re okay
Dear friend, it doesn’t have to be this way…

Listen, I am no angel, i am no saint
i am nobody to preach on faith…
But even I, who am just making it through
can see, you’ve lost your faith in you…

Listen, you are strong when you choose
you are smart, witty, & caring too
but, you’ve lost conviction in the truth
you need to back you up & get you through…

I’m not telling you what to believe in
i’m not saying you should make it up
i’m just saying, find something to live for
besides, these one night guilty drunks…

No, I am not ‘the one’ for you,
but, yes I will always be here…
dear, friend, not every love,
is the kind enhanced by a beer…

Dear friend, it kills me to see you falling
dear friend, it kills me to see you cry,
but more than anything else, my heart bleeds
when i see you blindly trashing your life…

 
 

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