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Dear Lord… Sinfully, yours truly


OH, enter in the prayer i ought to speak,
oh, it’s been so long, since i truly believed.
and oh, i kneel here on sinful knees,
oh Lord, please come break my everything…

Oh oh Lord, I need you. and all the pain you put me through

take me to the altar,
sacrifice my strength
i’m a hollow nothing
outside of your way with me.

oh lord, i need you… and all the pain you put me through.

there was a time i mapped out my life
such a holy pride i held my head up high.
if only i had been humble enough to hold your hand…
but i was too young and naive to understand

it’s the brokenness, that rebuilds into strength.
it’s in the silence where wisdom comes to speak.
it’s in a humble love, that we must give away everything.
and in giving it all away, that we receive peace…

Oh Lord, I need you, and all the pain you put me through…

it’s a hard cold world, without your comforting touch.
it’s a double edged sword that screams that one is never enough.
it’s a hopeless race, bitterly regretting the dripping time,
and for every drop passing, I’ve lost meaning in my life…

and then there’s you. and then there’s your son,
and then there’s Mary and her rose garden of love,
and then there’s this honesty that breaks my hardened pride,
Oh Lord, crush all my plans, and make my life right…

All the money in the world, can’t buy me peace of mind,
and all the travels only make me yearn for someone at my side,
and all the success only makes me realize how empty it is,
without your plan, burning from the center of it.

Here at this place, i step forward emptily filled,
I’ve not lived the life, that i know you had willed.
tears aren’t enough, break my heart tonight.
i don’t need the world. i only need you in my life…

So wash my heart, and make it pure in your sight,
let it be as a lily, make it strong for the fight.
Help me love the imperfection, seeing traces of you,
Oh Lord take everything, and make it all new.

Oh Lord, I need you, and all the pain you put me through…

i need the strength, i need the softness, i need the truth.
i need to be reborn, feel the rush of grace and peace flowing through,
there is nothing greater, and you are the first and only i chose.
oh Lord, now i know, i need you. i’ve always needed you.

Hear the raw truth, there is nothing greater in this life
test it with your limited years, it will be a bitter waste of time.
and as an egg shell must break, for a bird to come forth,
Lord break the empty shell of my life, and make it so much more

God, for real.
i desire nothing more.
finally this time,
I’m sinfully yours.

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what’s wrong with fear… UNAFRAID


What’s so bad about fear? Fear can offer drive, and a push to move forward. Fear often is what keeps everything from a government to a workplace flowing… For example, people try to get to work on time because they fear they will be fired. Fear can also inspire caution & prudence.

And yet over & over again we are commanded in scripture “DO NOT FEAR…” not as a suggestion, as a commandment. This has always grabbed my attention. Why is it so bad? And if we are commanded not to fear or to be afraid, then why are we also told to ‘fear the Lord’? Slightly divided rules, right?

Tonight it finally made sense to me. I think fear binds and constricts. And despite popular belief, our religious instructions often offer us a more honest freedom. And the affect of fear is obedience. Which is why it is good to fear the lord, & perhaps wrong to fear in the world. Or to allow any decision to be caused by fear.

Giving into fear, forces us to be obedient to that fear, instead of obedient to our inner desires, will, God’s will, or simply the freedom to try.

I think it’s revolutionary thought… to be fearless. I am not saying to be crazy impractical or to not think things through first or calculate them. But rather, to make our decisions entirely free of the influence of fear.

Real world example… a 29 year old girl who is deciding whether to settle for this guy who is okay, because she is afraid she can’t to do better, or to trust she can find better…

Which brings me to the ultimate opposite of fear… faith.

When you have faith… i mean that kind of faith where no matter the inflictions and falls of this world, knows that there is more beyond… more worth living for… then you have no fear.

so that is why fear is wrong, because it counter-acts faith, & enslaves us to this world.

I’m not saying to show up late to work every day… lol, respect is important. but, have faith that whatever your fears are in this world, that they truly are of this world. Seriously, even death, can’t capture us. If you truly believe this… Then, and pretty much only then, does it make sense to live unafraid.

 
 

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found my heart as i got over you


Sound my music to the shadow of a tale
almost grande almost more than the legends do
We had an epic unfurling of hopeful dreams
but our story ended with no goodbye from you…

most would count that as “the end”
but here, we can count that as the start
because since the moment I finally moved on
that’s when I found the best of my heart

I am the one looking for an adventure
I am the pirate of seashell treasures at the beach
I am the swing dancer in a swirly skirt
who won’t let anything keep me from dancing…

i love lemon ice cream on hot summer days
go ahead let myself indulge in some chocolate cake
Get a manicure, pedicure, spoil myself through & through
i learned to love my life, when, i was just trying to get over you

watch that ship disappear into the sea of past blues…
sing that country song, even if i can’t keep the tune
starting a new adventure after climbing a mountain or two
Cuz you moved on, and finally, I’m free to love someone new…

 

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i’ll stay on my own… thank you


Oh because love has broken my heart
a time or two…
and i’ve used it a sword to get revenge
and do that too….

Oh and if God is love, then why would I even try?
for all that love has ever been for me… is a lie…

and i guess we’re supposed to believe
that heaven is where trust is never broken
where fear is never felt or spread
and where lies and gossip are never spoken

but, here on Earth, it sure seems the other way
love’s the only thing that can break you into disrepair
on my own, independent, i’m safe and strong
so you can have your heart, but I won’t share…

 

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sweaty halo


I guess we’re all a little fallen angel
somewhere deep below the acts we do
i think every girl has a dream she let die
in order to make another grow and bloom

but I’m missing my wings on the road tonight
because on rocky trails, oh how my feet tire…
and as my halo gets hot & sweaty around my hairline…
i would love to fly, but i just know i’d miss the fire

oh and human form can feel so heavy
dragged down beneath the stars & heavens above
oh and on this earth it’s so hard to see
where’s the meaning, the point, who trusts love?…

 

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being alive!


I really need to fall in love again
and this week, I really have…

I realized you can fall in love with the sunrise
fall in love with the ever changing moon
fall in love with the starry milkey way
and fall in love with always finding the truth

fall in love with the changing seasons
fall in love with the people in my life
fall in love with the plans of grand travel
fall in love with a coffee shop open mic night

fall in love with walks through red rocks
and fall in love with nerdy co workers who bring smiles
fall in love with watering my garden at dusk
and fall in love with rising above and beyond my trials

Falling in love with a dream i swear i won’t let die
fall in love with the secrets i harbor within my heart
already falling in love with whoever i will marry someday
and fall in love with all the way my future’s begun to start

and i’ve fallen in love with my guitar strings
fallen in love with swing dancing all night
fallen in love with my sisters, brother, and folks
but mostly, i’ve just fallen in love with being alive

 

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and yet


Rested… it sounds so far away
I am so tired and exhausted these days
peace… it seems so abstract
everyone desire something they lack….

Hope, often seems in vain
it holds no power on anyone’s fate
and truth, can be so harsh
it seems like ignorance fuels the dark

yet, I must find rest
in my endless quest
and i shall follow the peace
i shall savor the sweet

and hope, i shall hold it dear
for it’s all i have in times of fear…
and truth, i must always know
for a life of lies is lived alone

change, the world always will
and before too long, we’ll all have our fill…
faith… so hard to understand how…
but it’s the root of all meaning i’ve found…

 
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Posted by on June 19, 2013 in explore, introspective, life, Poetry

 

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