Feather on a Kite

my hand is clenched on a feather
i found floating on the waves,
the six year old me cherished it as
if it were a pair of wings to save…

just one feather white & gray,
stuck in my hair, worn in my pocket,
i almost stored my treasure in a chest
shut the hinges & the locked it…

but i decided this dear feather of mine
deserved one last chance to fly,
so i tied it onto the string of my kite
& let it soar to the reaches of the sky…

when the kite descended on the grass,
and i went to recollect my friend,
i found it had flown a way from me,
we had met our short journey’s end….

Indeed, that was one lucky feather on the waves,
shed by some bird to drown in the sea…
and even as a human girl, i believe i would feel
honored to have anyone cherish me so throughly…

the love of a child,
is incomparible to those grown ups…
because after heart breaks,
death, and breaches of solid trust..

sooner or later we grow up,
& just let feathers float by,
oh but let the children be children,
let them dream, while there’s still time…

 

guilty gossip

Do you ever get that feeling?
that there’s someone in the room?
looking over your shoulder,
and observing every little thing you do…

just a single text
could come back to bite,
if your conscious chose to speak,
about any little white lie…

oh i wish i didn’t gossip,
i wish i could rewind the words,
i feel bad for spreading rumors
i know for which someone will hurt…

and i should just keep my mouth shut,
but it comes down to me or them,
and i’m not in the business of sinking,
so steal their world with guiltiness

 

stolen from the wild…. totally yours

Have you ever been so confused
about feelings you couldn’t understand?
ever been so afraid of love,
you almost didn’t give it a chance?

Have you ever wanted to run away
& unleash your wild side on the world?
pretend that feelings are for the weak?
and live the gypsy life of a music girl?

Wo-oh oh… that’s me, that’s I —
always fighting dreams that tie…
but you hold fast to my heart
with your love & silver blue eyes…

And in a backwards sort of jailbreak,
you stole my heart out of the wild terrain,
and have broken me into a faithful love…
your crazy dreams have made me tame…

somehow i’m freer with you at my side
than i ever was alone at the wheel…
& if i tried putting confusion into words,
i guess that’s how you make me feel…

totally crazy, totally wild
totally tamed, totally a child,
totally free, totally alive,
totally stuck on you for life…

totally begging, totally giving,
totally accepting, totally living,
finally have something to live for,
that finally, i am totally yours….

 

no more leavin’ behinds

I aint the same old girl you knew four years ago…
gunna prove with the time, i ain’t leavin’ no more…
and I realize my track record ain’t on the stayin’ side…
but, with you, babe i promise i’m sure.

I may get frustrated whine or cry
every now & again when I’m out here,
but for the first time I’m sticking through it,
love is the only reason I so truly care…

wish i could take back those flings
wish i could rewind the hearts I left behind…
because you were there from the beginning,
I wish i would have just taken you as mine…

but then, this is perfect, here & now
exactly how it was destined to be,
so i won’t complain, just know,
i would give up just about everything…

tonight i realized, it doesn’t much matter where you are,
i’d move to be the only girl to stand at your side,
because i’ll always love you, from the depths of my heart,
and I want you to be part of my day to day, year to year life…

 

I’d choose you over Texas…

oh you know, you know
you say please give you a break,
if one of us were to change our minds,
that would be my choice to make…

I want you to know, you’re wrong…
maybe I’m going crazy out here…
but when i’m with you, i’m where I belong,
and all my questions just disappear….

I’d choose you over texas…
i’d choose you over hot summer rains,
i’d choose you over myself,
I’d choose you over anything or anyplace…

 

circles to destiny

When you told me all we could be,
all the things that we should be,
i guess that I thought we would be… by now…

and, sure it’s harder long distance,
to truly show someone how much you miss them,
gotta build some sort of emotional resistance… I’ve found…

But is it just me? or are we falling apart?
is it just me? or are we putting things on hold?
is it just me? or is this hurting you too?
is it just me? or is this getting rather old?

Oh & I know you love me,
I have no reason to doubt…
and you know I should be more happy,
things actually worked out…

But they haven’t worked out with us, together…
and that was what you promised me, forever…
and i can’t help but wondering if we’ll ever…. follow through?

yes i still love you,
but i’m trying not to think about only you.
and yes you still love me,
but life has to go on before one & one makes two…

My thoughts turn into a big circle…
i know you’ll only beg my heart to wait…
restless & I don’t wait for anyone…
but for you, because you’re my soul mate….

i’ll wait until I’m sitting by your side,
i’ll wait until things are what we said they’d be…
I’ll wait & wait, & heaven knows i’m going crazy…
but i’ll wait, because you’re my crazy destiny…

 

pulses in the wind…

The throne of our love looms high above me,
and i can’t help but wonder, if i can ever reach that height?
You and I have our plans slowly weaving together,
but, I fear someday differences could lead us to a fight…

you lock your eyes on my fleeting glances,
and you tell me that you will never settle for anything but it all,
your hushed voice is certain, no quiver detected,
for once i believe you, when you say that you shall never let us fall…

because we could have ended then, that night…
i asked if we were too different or alike?
you said you’d never let me go away,
and so now, i hold that memory dearly tight….

as the heartbeat of our love pulses in the wind,
the distance fades the reassuring beats that live within,
i look to the horizon & feel my heart reaching out for him…
then tuck it in my pocket, to sleep until we are united again….

 

circumstancial love

google quote: “If love does not know how to give and take without restrictions, it is not love, but a transaction that never fails to lay stress on a plus and a minus.
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I think about this sometimes & wonder. Wonder how capable of love I am. I guess I’m good within my family. But with guys, even my best friend. I have my restrictions. if he cheats, he knows I”d end it, for example. Is this wrong? I mean, I just want him to know ahead of time. & i need to know that he’s trust worthy.

but should I not have said that? is it wrong to say i couldn’t live in Seattle forever? I grew up with sunshine, i need that. i guess my love is very circumstantial. God help me.

 

short & proud

I’ll be there to support you in doing,
what you feel you are meant to do,
even if that means a situation,
that isn’t the one i would usually choose.

I don’t want to marry a politician
but if that’s how you think you can change the world,
well then, I won’t stop your passion,
because I want to be your girl.

and this is part of who you are.
i would not make you cut it out
so go ahead & live it strong,
& i’ll stand beside you short & proud.

<3

 

written on the dark side of the moon. (if i ever question it)

And there we were in the aftermath
dreaming of love, & love’s gone past…
asking each other if destiny is real,
comforting our hopes on the other’s zeal…

but I won’t be your memory again.
no days, no time’s ever better than this.
we have only the future to look to today,
we are free of our old yesterdays…

because you & me we can create perfect.
a mix of hope, love, understanding, & working for it…
this fire of longing, shall surly serve us well,
and I’m glad my heart fell for you when it fell…

we have our own language of the heart,
we hear each other’s music even through the wind afar,
and I shall see your eyes each night in the moon,
and you shall hear my voice in your guitar’s tune….

oh we live in dreams & reality’s woven,
in songs, poems, stories, wishes, and finally chosen
we knew it was a hard world to believe in when we began,
so shame on me for complaining when i really understand.

you & I have our names written in the stars,
chiseled on the dark side of the moon with stone…
You & I have a passion that we shall never let die,
and this year without you, is a small trial to undergo…

a small price to pay for eternal joy there after,
a small burden carried from the ashes of disaster,
and I choose you inside out & outside back in,
remind me I love you if I ever question it.
…if i ever question it.

 

(sung with Am, C & Em)…