passions glories comforts and grace

Oh it’s one of those nights I can not lie
I just want to hold the world close and snuggle inside
to pull comforts and loved ones to warm the cold
and to ignore the obvious fate that before us all, lies…

and yet as it ticks by, another year with little meaning
i look around at who i should choose to unite
for in the future when i look at the end in fear,
i wish i could have a hand to hold in my fright

Where it all goes, what it all means…
i suppose without love, holds no worth or gain…
so passion, and glory, and money & fame….
If i never give of my heart, my life has been in vain…

 

heart pick-pocket

berry juicy kind of sweet
i let you get the best of me…
and i gave you just enough
but then you grabbed my trust…

and i’m still running,
trying to feel something…
give it back, give it back, it’s mine
somebody get him! tonight….

ain’t nothing but a love pick-pocket
stealing goodies like the love in a locket…
i don’t need your words another time,
i needed you to rise up & really be mine…

but you can’t be caught for this,
think you’re Leonardo Dicaprio’s twin,,
all you are is mean, & stolen part of me..
why won’t you set me free? & let me be…

 

in my stubborn boat of change

and you think you know life
then everything changes
the constellations rise & set
in entirely different places

as your horizon turns
and and the waters grow deep
and in months of same old, same old
you begin wondering….

Maybe i already had it all?
maybe i left it thinking of the sea
but all that is out here
is a lack of everyone & everything

in my own ocean of days
in my own boat of my own way
in my own route i will not change
i sail away from yesterdays

in my own stubborn need to be unique
i trade the solid ground for a beach
and i can’t really say i’d do it differently
when i was made to- sail the seas

 

how crazy ‘crazy’ can be

so you can sweet talk with all you’ve got
you can feed your tasty dreams of a tied knot
you can say you’re stubborn, but i’m already gone

by february i’ll have been set free
you thought u wanted crazy,
but that was before
you knew how crazy “crazy” can be

tell them that I lost my mind
tell them that i was too eager to try
tell them that some red haired devil got to me…

tell them that i’m sick of being a square,
tell them that this little town in nowhere
has gotten just a little too small for me…

tell them it was the alien’s mental snare,
or tell them that God has called me there
or just tell them i went all out crazy…and am living in a dream

because i am.

 

fishing in your eyes

holding my breath inside, i look into your brown eyes…
searching for your soul and what is written in your gaze
and i realize you are fishing within me too, to see what you find…
both of us are too proud to question or admit, what we’re asking with our eyes…

Oh did you just feel that spark when we kissed?
is this just me, or are you also falling in?
i want to know from you that you’ll commit…
promise me, I’m the only girl you’ll hold like this…

oh but, neither of us wants to be the first to dive
neither of us will speak with more than our eyes…
neither of us will be the first to put our hearts on the line…
oh but, I’m ready, if you’re ready to give us a real try…

 

don’t hide away

i want to lock my heart away….
hide it in a whispering gentle place…
cover my eyes from the world…
only let tender sunshine hit my face…

I really need a breath of fresh air…
the fragrance of blooming dreams…
oh i just want something powerful to come
and wash away all the pain still hurting…

oh hearts aren’t meant for crying
hearts are meant for loving and being loved…
and i wonder after enough breaking…
if i can ever really once again open up….

oh but you’ve gotta trust again,
even if it scares you to death!
‘cuz when you get to the end…
love is all that will be left…

and don’t cha want something?
don’t cha want someone there?
don’t cha want anyone to love you?
don’t you want anyone to care?

so don’t lock your heart away
don’t hide it in a secret cave…
here’s the quiet surrender i give…
i’m gonna try… try to love again

 

She was just a waterfall

She was just a waterfall….
So beautiful and enrapturing
Powerful and thunderous,
Yet, gentle and fascinating…

She reflected the beauty of the sunlight
Like a rainbow in the misty haze…
Oh she was like a waterfall…
Let a few tears fall every day….

And her sister tried to love her with her whole heart
But her sister had no idea it would be so hard
to convince her that it’s okay not to be a normal river…
and that waterfalls and calm waters both have equal parts…

and the father loved that waterfall like the sunshine
and when he was around, that’s when she sparkled most…
but nobody knew the pain of the rocks beaten beneath the rapids…
and it wasn’t long before that waterfall let her life fall into a ghost…

and so now, I, that sister sit in her room tonight…
haunted by snow-globes and treasure boxes she once cherished on a shelf…
I wonder if she’ll ever wake up from the trance & rubble of the storm?…
Without love, there’s no point in distractions; she was my cherished wealth….

 

your trophy is lost

the truth is you don’t love me…
you love being in love with somebody,
you love showing me off to your friends,
and writing songs about you & me…

You love having my face on your phone
and using me to scare your mom….
honestly I’m feeling more like a trophy,
who if you’re not careful is going to run off…

You love telling our friends from college
that you finally got the girl they all tried…
You drag me along for hours to your work,
just so that I can meet them & say ‘hi’…

And amid all your bragging,
I feel lost under your arm…
And you only want me to come out from your shadow,
To kiss me in the back of your car….

 

love like summer rain….

Nothin’ new going on in this small town
‘cept a rumor made up by some girls…
it’ll make it’s way round then fall out…
as people realize it don’t change the world…

lights turn off & lights turn on at the same hours
each night, in each house, in each room…
everybody got their routine down to a T…
except me, and my every changing life tune…

& i’m pretty sure they all think i’m kinda crazy.
but they love me like a crazy summer lightning-storm…
and they may think i’m sweet like a rose,
though, believe me, they can all tell you bout my thorns…

but mostly, they say quirky is just fine…
and they hope i can settle down & love the views.
just be at peace & learn to be happy….
learn to live years with out need of changing news…

I could tell you everything they’d say, i’m sure…
but you don’t really care what they think anyway…
you promise me that the future with you there,
will give happiness a new meaning, a new name…

I really think i could someday belong here…
I’d learn to roll my windows up & turn the volume down,
maybe I could even have a daily time i turn my lights out,
but without you, i could never truly be happy in this small town.

because what’s life without love?
it could be any, any life at all…
i could be sitting in the beaches of hawaii,
and i’d still be hoping for you to call…

i love you too much, i’m sure.
so much, that no one else could ever take your place.
no one else, & nothing else,
…not even a whole town, loving me like a hot summer rain.

 

magical as sunshine to me

You know all these days & times,
and all these songs & rhymes,
simply cannot do justice to you & me…

When there are hopes & fears,
mixed in with the joys & tears,
that stand with miles in between…

But as the future is taking shape..
I stop & look into your pixellated face,
and realize, you’re still everything to me…

You are my ocean side breeze,
the kind that personifies total peace,
and when you smile, it’s like that to me…

You are my shooting star
that i wish on each night from so very far,
totally distant, but still within reach…

You are my perfect summer day
I hope that you never go away,
I guess i just hope that someday you will see…

you are as magical as sunshine to me.